- Just -

Someone told me life will be not easy at forty. Not more than three days, unfortunately, I would be that age. It sounds terrible and complicated in my mind. Am I still beautiful? Am I still shinning? Am I still successful? Those questions are really disturbing my life.

Suddenly, I become sad and feeling nothing. Facing anything with dark thinking. Talking to myself that I can help my life. I want to leave alone, but I’m not ready being lonely. I want to scream to anyone, but I’m not ready being called the weird.

God, I feel empty. Just You who can save me.

Do I really unhappy because of my age?

Or, just feeling ignored